At the young age of sixteen, when He was not even aware of the fact ‘This
is the spiritual practice of Self-inquiry that directly bestows the experience
of the Self’, it so happened one day that, without any prior intention,
Sri Ramana embarked upon this rare spiritual practice!
On that day as if He were about to die, a great fear of death possessed
Him all of a sudden. Because of it, an impulse to scrutinize death also
arose in Him spontaneously. He was not perturbed to see the fast-approaching
death, nor did He feel inclined to inform others about it! He decided
to welcome it calmly and to solve the problem all alone. He lay down,
stretching His limbs like a corpse, and began to scrutinize death practically,
face to face.
Since it is of prime importance for the readers to know the technique
of Self-inquiry performed by Sri Ramana, the True Teacher, let us see
it here in the very words in which he later narrated His experience.
’All right, death has come! What is death? What is it that is dying? It
is this body that is dying; let it die!’ Deciding thus, closing the lips
tightly and remaining without breath or speech like a corpse, what came
to my knowledge as I looked within was: ‘This body is dead. Now it will
be taken to the cremation ground and burnt; it will become ashes. All
right, but with the destruction of this body, am I also destroyed? Am
I really this body?
Although this body is lying as a speechless and breathless corpse, undoubtedly
I am existing, untouched by this death! My existence is shining clearly
and unobstructed! So this perishable body is not ‘I’! I am verily the
immortal ‘I’ (Self)! Of all things, I alone am the reality! This body
is subject to death; but I who transcend the body am eternally living!’
Even the death that came to the body was unable to touch me!
Thus it dawned directly, and along with it the fear of death that had
come at first also vanished, never to appear again! All this was experienced
in a split second as direct knowledge and not as mere reasoning thoughts.
From that time onwards, the consciousness of my existence transcending
the body has ever continued to remain the same.” – thus Sri Ramana narrated.
Although Sri Ramana explained all this to us in so many words, He emphasized
the all-important fact: ‘All this took place within a second as a direct
experience, without the action of mind and speech’.
On account of this fear of death, the concentration of Sri Ramana was
fixed and deeply immersed in Self-attention in order to find out ‘What
is my existence? What is it that dies?’.
Thus it is proved by what Sri Ramana Himself did that, as we have been
explaining all along, only such a firm fixing of our attention on Self
is ‘Self-inquiry’. He has confirmed the same idea in the work ‘Who am
I?’, where He says:
Always keeping the mind (the attention) fixed in the Self (in the feeling
‘I’) alone is called ‘Self-inquiry’ ... Remaining firmly in Self-abidance,
without giving even the least room to the rising of any thought other
than the thought of Self (that is, without giving even the least attention
to any second or third person, but only to Self), is surrendering oneself
to God (which alone is called the supreme devotion).
When Sri Ramana was asked, ‘What is the means and technique to hold constantly
on to the ‘I’-consciousness?’, He revealed in His works the technique
of Self-inquiry which, as explained above, He had undertaken in His early
age, but in a more detailed manner as follows:
Self (atman) is that which is self-shining in the form ‘I am that I am’.
One should not imagine it to be anything such as this or that (light or
sound). Imagining or thinking thus is itself bondage. Since the Self is
the consciousness which is neither light nor darkness, let It not be imagined
as a light of any kind. That thought itself would be a bondage. The annihilation
of the ego (the primal thought) alone is liberation.
All the three bodies consisting of the five sheaths are contained in the
feeling ‘I am the body’; therefore if, by the inquiry ‘Who is this I’?
(that is, by Self-attention), the identification with (attachment to)
the gross body alone is removed, the identification with the other two
bodies will automatically cease to exist.
As it is only by clinging to this that the identifications with the subtle
and casual bodies live, there is no need to annihilate these identifications
separately. How to inquire? Can this body, which is insentient like a
log and such things, shine and function as ‘I’? It cannot. The body cannot
say ‘I’. – Forty verses on Reality, verse 23 by Sri Ramana.
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Discarding the body as a corpse, not uttering the word ‘I’ by mouth, but
seeking with the mind diving inwards ‘Whence does this I rise?’ alone
is the path to knowledge. – Forty Verses, verse 29.
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If keenly observed what that feeling is which now shines as ‘I’, an experience
of a new, clear and fresh knowledge of one’s existence alone will be experienced
without sound as ‘I-I’ in the heart.
When the mind reaches the Heart by inquiring within ‘Who am I?’, he, ‘I’
(the ego) falling down abashed, the One (the Reality) appears spontaneously
as ‘I-I’ (I am that I am). - Forty verses, verse 30.
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When sought within ‘What is the place from which it rises as I?’, ‘I’
(the ego) will die. This is Self-inquiry. - Forty verses, verse 19.
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Where this ‘I’ dies, there and then shines forth spontaneously the One
as ‘I-I’. That alone is the Whole.” - Forty verses, verse 20.
 
If without leaving it we just be, the experience of a new, clear and fresh
knowledge of one’s existence, completely annihilating the feeling of individuality
– the ego , ‘I am the body’ - finally will come to an end just as the
camphor flame dies out. This alone is proclaimed to be liberation by Sages
and scriptures.
Although in the beginning, on account of the tendencies towards sense-objects
which have been recurring down the ages, thoughts rise in countless numbers
like the waves of the ocean, they will all perish as the aforesaid Self-attention
becomes more and more intense. Since even the doubt ‘Is it possible to
destroy all of them and to remain as Self alone?’ is only a thought, without
giving room even to that thought, one should persistently cling fast to
Self-attention.
However great a sinner one may be, if, not lamenting ‘Oh, I am a sinner!
How can I attain salvation?’ but completely giving up even the thought
that one is a sinner, one is steadfast in Self-attention, one will surely
be saved. Therefore everyone, diving deep within himself with desirelessness,
can attain the pearl of Self.
As long as there are tendencies towards sense-objects in the mind, (since
they will always create some subtle or gross world appearance) so long
the inquiry ‘Who am I?’ is necessary. As and when thoughts rise of their
own accord, one should annihilate all of them through inquiry then and
there in their very place of origin.
What is the means to annihilate them? If other thoughts rise disturbing
Self-attention, one should, without attempting to complete them, inquire
‘To whom did they arise?’. It will then be known ‘To me’; immediately,
if we observe ‘Who is this I that thinks?’, the mind (our power of attention
which was hitherto engaged in thinking of second and third persons) will
turn back to its source (Self). Hence (since no one is there to attend
to them), the other thoughts which had risen will also subside.
By repeatedly practicing thus, the power of the mind to abide in its source
increases. When the mind thus abides in the Heart, the first thought,
‘I’ (‘I am the body’, the rising ‘I’), which is the root of all other
thoughts, itself having vanished, the ever existing Self (the being ‘I’)
alone will shine. The place (or state) where even the slightest trace
of the thought ‘I’ (‘I am this, that, the body, the Self and so on’) does
not exist, alone is Self.
That alone is called Silence.
After coming to know that the final decision of all the scriptures is
that such destruction of the mind alone is liberation, to read scriptures
unlimitedly is fruitless. In order to destroy the mind, it is necessary
to inquire who one is; then how, instead of inquiring thus within oneself,
can one know oneself by inquiring in scriptures?
For Rama to know himself to be Rama, is a mirror necessary? (That is to
say, for one to know oneself through Self-attention to be ‘I am’, are
scriptures necessary?) ‘Oneself’ is within the five sheaths, whereas the
scriptures are outside them. Therefore, how can oneself, who is to be
attended to within, setting aside even the five sheaths, be found in scriptures?
Since scripture inquiry is futile, one should give it up and take to Self-inquiry.
– Thus says Sri Ramana.
The above several paragraphs were paraphrased from
the first chapter of ‘Vichara Sangraham’ and from the whole of ‘Who am
I?’, both by Ramana Maharshi.
By means of an example, let us make clear this technique of fixing the
attention only on the Self, which has been described above in the words
of Sri Ramana. But from the very outset it must be conceded that, since
the nature of Self is unique and beyond comparison, it cannot be explained
fully and accurately by anyone through any example whatsoever.
Though most of the examples which have been given in accordance with the
intellectual development of the people and the different circumstances
of their times may be appropriate to a great extent, these insentient
examples can never fully explain Self, which is sentient.
The example of a movie projector often pointed out by Sri Ramana and the
following example of a reflected ray of the sun from a mirror are given
solely with the view that they may remove many doubts of the readers and
clarify their understanding. But one should not fall into the error of
stretching the example too far.
A broken piece of mirror is lying on the ground in the open space in full
sunshine. The sunlight that falls on that piece of mirror is reflected,
and the reflected light enters a nearby dark room and falls on its inner
wall. The ray from the mirror to the inside wall of the dark room is a
reflected ray of the sun. By means of this reflected ray, a man in the
dark room is able to see the objects inside that room.
The reflected light, when seen on the wall, is of the same form or shape
as the piece of mirror (triangular, square or round). But the direct sunlight
(the original light, the source of the reflected ray) in the open space
shines indivisible, single, all-pervading and unlimited by any specific
form or shape.
Self, our existence-consciousness, is similar to the direct sunlight in
the open space. The ego-feeling or mind-knowledge, the ‘I am the body’–consciousness,
is similar to the reflected ray stretching from the mirror to the inner
wall of the room. But since Self-consciousness is limitless like the vast,
all-pervading direct sunlight, it has no form-adjunct.
Just as the reflected ray takes on the limitations and size of the piece
of mirror, the ego-feeling experiences the size and form of a body as
‘I’: it has adjuncts. Just as objects in the dark room are cognized by
means of the reflected light, the body and world are cognized only by
means of the mind-knowledge.
“Although the world and the mind rise and set together, it is by the mind
alone that the world shines.” - Forty Verses, verse 7.
Let us suppose that a man in the dark room wants to stop observing the
objects in the room, which are seen by means of the reflected light, and
is possessed instead by a longing to see its source, ‘Whence comes this
light?’. If so, he should go to the very spot where the reflected beam
strikes the wall, position his eyes and look back along the beam.
What does he see then? The sun! But what he now sees is not the real sun;
it is only a reflection of it! Furthermore , it will appear to him as
if the sun is lying at a certain spot on the ground outside the room!
The particular spot where the sun is seen lying outside can even be pointed
out as being so many feet to the right or left of the room (like saying,
‘Two digits to the right from the center of the chest is the heart’).
But, does the sun really lie thus on the ground at that spot? No, that
is only the place whence the reflected beam rises! What should he do if
he wants to see the real sun? He must keep his eyes positioned along the
straight line in which the reflected beam comes and, without moving them
to either side of it, follow it towards the reflected sun, which is then
visible to him.
Just as the man in the dark room, deciding to see the source of the reflected
beam which has come into the room, gives up the desire either to enjoy
or to make research about the things there with the help of that reflected
beam, so a man who wants to know the real light (Self) must give up all
efforts towards enjoying or knowing about the various worlds, which shine
only by means of the mind-light functioning through the five senses.
He cannot know Self if he is deluded by cognizing and desiring external
objects (like a worldly man) or if he is engaged in investigating them
(like our modern scientists).
This giving up of attention towards external sense-objects is desirelessness
or inward renunciation. The eagerness to see whence the reflected ray
comes into the room corresponds to the eagerness to see whence the ego-‘I’,
the mind-light, rises. This eagerness is love for Self.
Keeping the eyes positioned along the straight line of the beam without
straying away to one side or the other corresponds to the one-pointed
attention fixed unswervingly on the ‘I’-consciousness. Is not the man
now moving along the straight line of the reflected beam from the dark
room towards the piece of mirror lying outside? This moving corresponds
to diving within towards the Heart.
“Just as one would dive in order to find something that had fallen into
the water, so one should dive within with a keen (introverted) mind, controlling
breath and speech, and know the rising-place of the rising ego. Know thus!”
Forty verses, verse 28
Some, taking only the words ‘should dive within controlling breath and
speech’, set out to practice exercises of breath-control (pranayama).
Although it is a fact that the breath stops in the course of inquiry,
for it to be stopped the roundabout way of breath control (pranayama)
is not necessary. When the mind, with a tremendous longing to find the
source which gives it light, turns inwards, the breath stops automatically!
“Therefore, by the practice of fixing the mind (the attention) in the
Heart (Self), the pure consciousness, both the destruction of tendencies-habits-predispositions
and the control of the breath are accomplished automatically.” Forty verses
supplement, verse 24
If the breath of the inquirer is exhaled at the time of his mind thus
giving up knowing external sense-objects and starting to attend to its
original form of light, Self, it automatically remains outside without
being again drawn in. Likewise, if it is inhaled at that time, it automatically
remains inside without being again exhaled! These are to be taken as ‘external
retention’ and ‘internal retention’ respectively. Until there is a rising
of a thought on account of non-vigilance in Self-attention, this retention
will continue in an inquirer quite effortlessly.
By a little scrutiny, will it not be clear to anyone that even in our
everyday life when some startling news is suddenly brought to us or when
we try to recollect a forgotten thing with full concentration, the breath
stops automatically on account of the keenness of mind (the intensity
of concentration) that takes place then? Similarly, the breath will stop
automatically as soon as the mind, with an intense longing to see its
original form of light and with earnest one-pointedness, begins to turn
keenly and remain within. In this state of retention, no matter how long
it continues, the inquirer does not experience suffocation, that is, the
urge to exhale or inhale.
But while practicing breath control, if the units of time of the retention
are increased, one does experience suffocation. If the inquirer’s attention
is so intensely fixed on Self that de hoes not even care to know whether
the breath has stopped or not, then his state of retention is involuntary
and without struggle.
There are some aspirants, however, who try to know at that time whether
or not the breath has stopped. This is wrong, since the attention will
be lost and thereby various thoughts will shoot up and the flow of spiritual
practice will be interrupted. That is why Sri Ramana advised, “Control
breath and speech with a keen (introverted) mind’. It would be wise to
understand this verse thus, by adding ‘with a keen mind’ in all the three
places: Control the breath with a keen mind, dive within with a keen mind,
and know the rising place with a keen mind.
By this very moving along with it, does not the man who positions his
eyes on the reflected beam reduce its length? Just as the length of the
beam decreases as he advances, so also the mind’s tendency of expanding
shrinks more and more as the aspirant perseveres in sincerely seeking
its source.
“When the attention goes deeper and deeper within along the (reflected)
ray ‘I’, its length decreases more and more, and when the ray ‘I’ dies,
that which shines as ‘I’ is Self-Knowledge .” – Eleven Verses on Self-inquiry,
verse 9 by Sri Sadhu Om.
When the man finally reaches very near to the piece of mirror, he can
be said to have reached the very source of the reflected ray. This is
similar to the aspirant diving within and reaching the source (Heart)
whence he had risen. Does not the man now attain a state where the length
of the reflected ray is reduced to nothing – a state where no reflection
is possible because he is so close to the mirror?
Similarly, when the aspirant, on account of his diving deeper and deeper
within by an intense effort of Self-attention, is so close to his source
that not even an iota of rising of the ego is possible, he remains absorbed
in the great dissolution of the ‘I am the body’-feeling, which he had
previously had as a target of attention. This dissolution is what Sri
Ramana refers to when He says “’I’ will die” in The Essence of Instruction,
verse 19.
Because of his mere search for the source of the reflected ray of the
sun, does not the man now, after leaving the dark room, stand in the open
space in a state of void created by the non-existence of that reflected
ray? This is the state of the aspirant remaining in the Heart-space in
the state of the great void created, through mere Self-attention, by the
non-existence of the ego-‘I’. The man who has come out of the room into
the open space is dazed and laments, “Alas! The sun that guided me so
far (the reflected sun) is now lost.”
At this moment, a friend of his standing in the open space comes to him
with these words of solace: “Where were you all this time? Were you not
in the dark room? Where are you now? Are you not in the open space? When
you were in the dark room, that which guided you out was just one thin
ray of light; but here (in this vast open space), are not the rays of
light countless and in an unlimited mass? What you saw previously was
not even the direct sunlight, but only a reflected ray! But what you are
now experiencing is the direct sunlight. When the place where you are
now is nothing but the unlimited space of light, can a darkness come into
existence because of the void created by the disappearance of the reflected
ray? Can its disappearance be a loss? Know that its disappearance itself
is the true light; it is not darkness.”
Similarly, by the experience of the great void, created by the annihilation
of the ego, the aspirant is somewhat taken aback, “Alas! Even the ‘I’-consciousness
(the ego), which I was attending to in my spiritual practice till now
as a beacon light, is lost! Then is there really no such thing at all
as ‘Self’ (atman)?”
At that very moment, the True Teacher, who is ever shining as his Heart,
points out to him thus: “Can the destruction of the ego, which is only
an infinitesimal reflected consciousness, be really a loss? Are you not
clearly aware not only of its former existence, but also of the present
great void created by its disappearance? Therefore, know that you, who
know even the void as ‘this is a void’, alone are the true knowledge;
you are not a void!”
True knowledge is being devoid of knowledge as well as ignorance of objects.
Knowledge of objects is not true knowledge. Since the Self shines self-luminous,
with nothing else for It to know, with nothing else to know It, the Self
is Knowledge. It is not a void. - Forty Verses, verse 12.
In an instant as a direct experience of the shining of his own existence-consciousness
by touching (flashing as a manifestation) in Heart as Heart, the aspirant
who started the search ‘Whence am I?’ or ‘Who am I?’ now attains the non-dual
Self-knowledge, the true knowledge ‘I am that I am’, which is devoid of
the limitations of a particular place or time.
Clinging to the consciousness ‘I’ and thereby acquiring a greater and
greater intensity of concentration upon it, is diving deep within. Instead
of thus diving within, many, thinking that they are engaged in Self-inquiry,
sit down for hours together simply repeating mentally or vocally ‘Who
am I?’ or ‘Whence am I?’. There are others again who, when they sit for
inquiry, face their thoughts and endlessly repeat mentally the following
questions taught by Sri Ramana:
“To whom do these thoughts arise? To me; who am I?”, or sometimes they
even wait for the next thought to come up so that they can fling these
questions at it! Even this is futile! Did we sit to thus hold a court
of inquiry, calling one thought after another! Is this the spiritual practice
of diving within? Therefore, we should not remain watching ‘What is the
next thought?’.
Merely to keep on questioning in this manner is not Self-attention. Concerning
those who thus merely float on the surface of thought-waves, keeping their
mind on these questions instead of diving within by attending to the existence-consciousness
with a keen mind, thereby controlling mind, breath and all the activities
of the body and senses, Sri Ramana says:
Compare him who asks himself ‘Who am I?’ and ‘From which place am I?’
, though he himself exists all the while as the Self, to a drunken man
who prattles ‘Who am I?’ and ‘Where am I?’ – Five Verses on the Self,
verse 2.
and further, He asks:
How to attain that state wherein ‘I’ does not rise – that state of egolessness
(the great void) – unless (instead of floating like this) we seek the
place whence ‘I’ rises? And unless we attain that (egolessness), how to
abide in the state of Self, where ‘We are That’? - Forty Verses, verse
27.
Therefore, all that we are to practice is to be still with the remembrance
of the feeling ‘I’. It is only when there is a slackness of vigilance
during Self-attention that thoughts, which are an indication of it, will
rise.
In other words, if thoughts rise it means that our Self-attention is lost.
It is only as a contrivance to win back Self-attention from thought-attention
that Sri Ramana advised us to ask ‘To whom do these thoughts appear?’.
Since the answer ‘To me’ is only a dative form of ‘I’, it will easily
remind us of the nominative form, the feeling ‘I’.
However, if we question ‘Who thinks these thoughts?’, since the nominative
form, the feeling ‘I’ , is obtained as an answer, will not Self-attention
which has been unnoticed, be regained directly? This regaining of Self-attention
is actually being Self (that is, remaining or abiding as Self)! Such ‘being’
alone is the correct spiritual practice; spiritual practice is not doing,
but being!
Some complain, ‘When the very rising of the ego from sleep is so surreptitious
as to elude our notice, how can we see whence it rises? It seems to be
impossible!”
That is true because the mind’s effort of attention is absent in sleep,
since the mind itself is not at all there! As ordinary people are not
acquainted with the knowledge of their ‘being’ but only with the knowledge
of their ‘doing’ (that is, the knowledge of their making efforts), for
such people it is impossible to know from sleep the rising of the ego
from there.
Since the effort considered by them as necessary is absent in sleep, it
is no wonder that they are unable to commence the inquiry from sleep itself!
But, since the whole of the waking state is a mere sportive play of the
ego and since the effort of the mind here is under the experience of everyone,
at least in the waking state one can turn and attend to the pseudo ‘I’
shining in the form ‘I am so-and-so’.
Turning inwards, daily see yourself with an introverted look and It (the
Reality) will be known’ thus did you tell me, O my Arunachala! - The Marital
Garland of Letters, verse 44 by Sri Ramana.
The inquiry begins only during the leisure hours of the waking state when
one sits for practice. Just as a thing comes to our memory when its name
is thought of, does not the first person feeling come to everyone’s memory
as soon as the name (pronoun) ‘I’ is thought of?
Although this first person feeling is only the ego, the pseudo ‘I’ consciousness,
it does not matter. Having our attention withdrawn from second and third
persons and clinging to the first person – that alone is spiritual practice.
As soon as the attention turns towards the first person feeling, not only
do other thoughts disappear, but also the first thought, the rising and
expanding pseudo ‘I’ consciousness, itself begins contracting!
When the mind, the ego, which wanders outside knowing only other objects
(second and third persons) begins to attend to its own nature, all other
objects will disappear and, by experiencing its true nature (Self), the
pseudo ‘I’ will also die. – The Garland of Guru’s sayings, verse 193
Another translation of that same verse: “If the mind turned outward and
distracted, starts observing its own being, Alienation ends, the vestige
ego, merges in the light of true Awareness shining in the heart.” – verse
193
“If the fickle mind turns towards the first person, the first person (the
ego) will become non-existent and That which really exists will then shine
forth.” - Eleven Verses on Self-Inquiry, verse 6 by Sadhu Om.
This is the great revelation made by Sri Ramana and bestowed by Him as
a priceless boon upon the world of spiritual aspirants in order to bring
Vedanta easily under practical experience.
Just as a rubber ball gains greater and greater momentum while bouncing
down the staircase, the more the concentration in clinging to the first
person consciousness is intensified, the faster is the contraction of
the first thought (the ego), till finally it merges in its source.
That which now merges thus is only the adjunct, the feeling ‘so and so’
which, at the moment of waking, came and mixed with the pure existence-consciousness,
which was shinning in sleep as ‘I am’, to constitute the form of the ego,
‘I am so-and-so’, ‘I am this’ or ‘I am that’.
That is, what has come and mixed now slips away. All that an aspirant
can experience in the beginning of his practice is only the slipping away
(subsidence) of the ego. Since the aspirant tracks down the ego from the
waking state, where it is in full play, in the beginning it is possible
for him to cognize only its removal. But to cognize its rising (how it
rises and holds on to ‘I am’) from sleep will be more difficult for him
at this stage.
When Self-attention is started from the waking consciousness ‘I am so-and-so’,
since it is only the adjunct, the feeling ‘so-and-so’, that slips away
(because it is merely non-existent, and unreal thing (the unreal dies
and the Reality alone survives, the aspirant even now (when ’so-and-so’
has dropped off) feels no loss to the consciousness ‘I am’ which he had
experienced in the waking state.
Now he attains a state which is similar to the sleep he has experienced
every day and which is devoid of all and everything (because, ‘The ego
is verily all –, since the whole universe, which is nothing but thoughts,
is an expansion of the ego). But a great difference is now experienced
by him between the sleep that, without his knowledge, has been coming
and overwhelming him all these days due to the complete exhaustion of
mind and body, and this sleep which is now voluntarily brought on and
experienced by him with the full consciousness of the waking state. How?
“Because there is consciousness, this is not sleep, and because there
is the absence of thoughts, it is not the waking state; it is therefore
the existence-consciousness, the unbroken nature of the Auspicious One
who destroys illusion. Without leaving it, abide in it with great love.”
– From the Essence of Spiritual Practice by Sri Sadhu Om
Whenever the aspirant during the time of spiritual practice becomes extroverted
from this voluntarily brought about sleep like state, he feels absolutely
certain, ‘I was not sleeping, but was all the while fully conscious of
myself’.
Though his real aspect (existence-consciousness) is ever knowing without
the least doubt its own existence in sleep as ‘I am’, whenever he becomes
extroverted from everyday sleep, since he (the mind) did not even once
have the experience of continuing to know ‘I am’ from the waking state,
he can only say ‘I slept, I did not know myself at that time’.
The truth is this: since the state of his Self-existence, devoid of the
adjunct ‘so-and-so’, is traced out and caught hold of in the voluntarily
brought about sleep with the full consciousness continuing from the waking
state, the knowledge that the pure existence-consciousness knows itself
as ‘I am’ is clear in this sleep state. That is why the aspirant now says
‘I did exist throughout, I did not sleep!’.
Prior to his spiritual practice, since he was throughout the waking state
identifying as ‘I’ the mind, which is the form of the adjunct ‘so-and-so’,
after waking up from the ordinary daily sleep, where the mind did not
exist, this mind (the man) says ‘I did not exist in sleep!’. That is all!
Those who experience many times this removal of the ego through practice,
since they have an acquaintance with the experience of their pure existence-consciousness
as ‘I am’ even after the removal of the ego, can minutely cognize, even
at the moment of just waking up from sleep, how the adjunct ‘so-and-so’
comes and mixes. Those who do not have such strength of practice cannot
cognize, from sleep itself, the ego at its place of rising.
The only thing that is easy for them is to find the ego’s place of setting
(which is also its place of rising) through the effort started from the
waking state. In either case, the end and the achievement will be the
same. When the attention is focused deeper and deeper within towards the
feeling ‘I am’ and when the ego thereby shrinks more and more into nothingness,
our power of attention becomes subtler than the subtlest atom and thereby
grows sharper and brighter.
Hence, the strength of abidance will now be achieved to remain balanced
between two states, that is, in a state after the end of sleep and before
waking up, in other words, before being possessed by the first thought.
Through this strength, the skill will now be gained by the aspirant to
find out the adjunct ‘so and so’, which comes and mixes, to be a mere
second person (that is, although it has hitherto been appearing as if
it were the first person, it will now be clearly seen to be his mere shadow,
non-Self, the primal sheath, a thing alien to him).
This is what Janaka, the royal Sage, meant when he said “I have found
out the thief (the time of his coming – the time and place of the ego’s
rising) who has been ruining me all along; I will inflict the right punishment
upon him”.
Since the ego, which was acting till now as if it were the first person,
is found to be a second person alien to us, the right punishment is to
destroy it at its very place of rising (just as the reflected ray is destroyed
at its place of rising) by clinging steadfastly to the real first person
(the real import of the word ‘I’), existence-consciousness, through the
method of regaining Self-attention taught by Sri Ramana (‘To whom? To
me; who am I?’).
“As you practice more and more abiding in this existence-consciousness
(that is, remaining in the state between sleep and waking), the ordinary
sleep which had previously been taking possession of you will melt away,
and the waking which was full of sense knowledge will not creep in again.
Therefore repeatedly and untiringly abide in it.” - The Essence of Spiritual
Practice by Sri Sadhu Om
By greater and more steadfast practice of abiding in this existence-consciousness,
we will experience that this state seems to come often and take possession
of us of its own accord whenever we are free from our daily work. Since
this state of existence-consciousness is in fact nothing but ‘we’, it
is wrong to think that such a state comes and takes possession of us!
While at work, we attend to other things; after that work is over and
before we attend to some other second or third person, we naturally abide
in our real state, existence-consciousness.
Though this happens to one and all every day, it is only to those who
have the experience of Self-consciousness through the aforesaid practice
that the state of Self-abidance will be clearly discerned after leaving
one second person thought and before catching another one (that is, between
two thoughts).
Why has it been said (in the above two verses of ‘The Essence of Spiritual
Practice’) that one ought to make effort repeatedly to be in that state
(our existence-consciousness) and ought to abide in it with more and more
love? Because, until all the tendencies-habits-predispositons which drive
one out of it are completely exhausted, this state will seem to come and
go. Hence the need for continued effort and love to abide in the Self.
When, through this practice our state of existence-consciousness is experienced
always as inescapably natural, then there will be no harm even if waking
dream and sleep pass across. For those who are well established in the
unending Self-consciousness, which pervades and transcends all these three
so-called states (waking, dream and sleep), there is but one state, the
Whole, the All, and that alone is real! This state, which is devoid even
of the feeling ‘I am making effort’, is your natural state of being! Be!!
- From The Essence of Spiritual Practice by Sri Sadhu Om.
Just as the man came out into the open space from the dark room by steadfastly
holding on to and moving along the reflected ray, so the inquirer reaches
the open space of Heart, coming out of the prison, the attachment to the
body through the nerves, by assiduously holding on to the feeling ‘I am’.
Let us now see how this process takes place in the body of an advanced
inquirer.
Just on waking up from sleep, a consciousness ‘I’ shoots up like a flash
of lightening from the Heart to the brain. From the brain it then spreads
throughout the body along the nerves. This I-consciousness is like electrical
energy. Its impetus or voltage is the force of attachment with which it
identifies a body as ‘I’. This consciousness, which spreads with such
a tremendous impetus and speed all over the body as ‘I’, remains pure,
having no adjunct attached to it, till it reaches the brain from the Heart.
Since its force of attachment is so great that the time taken by it to
shoot up from the Heart to the brain is extremely short, one millionth
of a second so to speak, ordinary people are unable to cognize it in its
pure condition, devoid of any adjunct. This pure condition of the rising
‘I’-consciousness is what was pointed out by Sri Ramana when He said:
In the space between two states or two thoughts, the pure ego (the pure
condition or true nature of the ego) is experienced. - Maharshi’s Gospel,
Book One, chapter five, entitled ‘Self and Ego’.
For this ‘I’-consciousness that spreads from the brain at a tremendous
speed throughout the body, the nerves are the transmission lines, like
wires for electrical power. (How many they are is immaterial here). The
mixing of the pure consciousness ‘I am’, after reaching the brain, with
an adjunct as ‘I am this, I am so-and-so, I am the body’ is what is called
bondage or the knot.
This knot has two forms: the knot of bondage to the nerves and the knot
of attachment. The connection of this power, the ‘I’-consciousness, with
the gross nervous system is called ‘the knot of bondage to the nerves’,
and its connection with the causal body, whose form is the latent tendencies,
is called ‘the knot of attachment’. The knot of bondage to the nerves
pertains to the breath, while the knot of attachment pertains to the mind.
Mind and breath, which have thought and action as their respective functions,
are like two diverging branches of the trunk of a tree, but their root
(the activating power) is one. – The Essence of Instruction, verse 12
by Sri Ramana.
Since the source of the mind and the breath is one (the Heart), when the
knot of attachment is severed by the annihilation of the mind through
Self-inquiry, the knot of bondage to the nerves - is also severed. In
raja yoga, after removing the knot of bondage to the nerves by means of
breath-control, if the mind which is thus controlled is made to enter
the Heart from the brain, since it reaches its source, then the knot of
attachment is also severed.
When the mind which has been subdued by breath-control is led (to the
Heart) through the only path (the path of knowing Self), its form will
die. – The Essence of Instruction, verse 14 by Sri Ramana.
However, since the knot of attachment is the basic one, until and unless
the destruction of attachment is effected by knowing Self, even when the
knot of bondage to the nerves is temporarily removed in sleep, swoon,
death or by the use of anesthetics, the knot of attachment remains unaffected
in the form of tendencies-habits-predispositions, which constitute the
causal body, and hence rebirths are inescapable.
This is why Sri Ramana insists that one reaching kashta-nirvikalpa-samadhi
through raja yoga should not stop there (since it is only a temporary
absorption of the mind), but that the mind so absorbed should be led to
the Heart in order to attain sahaja-nirvikalpa-samadhi, which is the destruction
of the mind and the destruction of the attachment to the body.
In the body of such a Self-realized One, the coursing of the ‘I’-consciousness
along the nerves, even after the destruction of the knot of attachment,
is like the water on a lotus leaf or like a burnt rope, and thus it cannot
cause bondage. Therefore the destruction of the knot of attachment is
anyway indispensable for the attainment of the natural state, the state
of the destruction of the tendencies-habits-predispositions.
The nerves are gross, but the consciousness-power that courses through
them is subtle. The connection of the ‘I-consciousness with the nerves
is similar to that of the electrical power with the wires, that is, it
is so unstable that it can be disconnected or connected in a second. Is
it not an experience common to one and all that this connection is daily
broken in sleep and effected in the waking state? When this connection
is effected, body-consciousness rises, and when it is broken, body-consciousness
is lost.
Here it is to be remembered what has already been stated, namely that
body-consciousness and world-consciousness are one and the same. So, like
our clothes and ornaments, which are daily removed and put on, this knot
is alien to us, a transitory and false entity hanging loosely on us! This
is what Sri Ramana referred to when He said:
“We can detach our self from what we are not”!
Disconnecting the knot in such a way that it will never again come into
being is called by many names such as ‘the cutting of the knot’, ‘the
destruction of the mind’, and so on. ‘In such a way that it will never
again come into being’ means this: by attending to it (the ego) through
the inquiry ‘Does it in truth exist at present?’ in order to find out
whether it had ever really come into being, there takes place the dawn
of knowledge, the real waking, where it is clearly and firmly known that
no such knot has ever come into being, that no such ego has ever risen,
that ‘that which exists’ alone ever exists, and that that which was existing
as ‘I am’ is ever existing as ‘I am’!
The attainment of this knowledge (Self-knowledge), the knowledge that
the knot or bondage is at all times non-existent and has never risen,
is the permanent disconnecting of the knot. Let us explain this with a
small story:
“Alas! I am imprisoned! I have been caught within this triangular room!
How to free myself?” - thus was a man complaining and sobbing, standing
in a corner where the ends of two walls joined. Groping on the two walls
in front of him with his two hands, he was lamenting: “No doorway is available,
nor even any kind of outlet for me to escape through! How can I get out?”
Another man, a friend of his who was standing at a distance in the open,
heard the lamenting, turned in that direction and noticed the state of
his friend. There were only two walls in that open space. They were closing
only two sides, one end of each of them meeting the other. The friend
in the open quickly realized that the man, who was standing facing only
the two walls in front of him, had concluded, due to the wrong notion
that there was a third wall behind him, that he was imprisoned within
a three-walled room.
So he asked, ‘Why are you lamenting, groping on the walls?”
“I am searching for a way through which to escape from the prison of this
triangular room, but I don’t find any way out!” replied the man.
The friend: “Well, why don’t you search for a way out on the third wall
behind you!”
The man (turning and looking): “Ah, here there is no obstacle! Let me
run through this way.” (So saying, he started to run away).
The friend: “What! Why do you run away? Is it necessary for you to do
so? If you do not run away, will you remain in prison?”
The man: “Oh! yes, yes,! I was not at all imprisoned! How could I have
been imprisoned when there was no wall behind me? It was merely my own
delusion that I was imprisoned. I was never imprisoned, nor am I now released!
So I do not even need to run away from near these walls where I am now!
The defect of my not looking behind was the reason for my so-called bondage;
and the turning of my attention behind is really the spiritual practice
for my so-called liberation! In reality, I am ever remaining as I am,
without any imprisonment or release!”
Thus knowing the truth, he remained quiet.
The two walls in the story signify the second and third persons. The first
person is the third wall said to be behind the man. There is no way at
all to liberation by means of second and third person attention.
Only by the first person attention ‘Who am I?’ will the right knowledge
be gained that the ego, the first person, is ever non-existent, and only
when the first person is thus annihilated will the truth be realized that
bondage and liberation are false.
So long as one thinks like a madman ‘I am a bound one’, thoughts of bondage
and liberation will last. When looking into oneself ‘Who is this bound
one?’, the eternally free and ever-shining Self alone will (be found to)
exist. Thus, where the thought of bondage no longer stands, can the thought
of liberation still endure! - Forty verses, verse 39.
(In the grammar of most languages, including Sanskrit, the first person,
‘I’, the second person, ‘you’, and the third person, ‘he, she, it and
so on’, are each denominated as a person. But in Tamil grammar these three
are termed respectively as the first place, second place and third place.
Classifying them thus as places is a very helpful clue for aspirants.
How? Is not the sole aim of sincere aspirants on the path to Reality to
transcend illusion and to reach the Absolute, the Supreme Self? How then
to cross or transcend illusion?
Time and place are the two foremost conceptions projected by illusion.
Not even a single thought can be formed which is not bound up with illusion
in the form of these two conceptions, time and place. Every thought must
involve a past and future time (because each thought is formed in a moment
of time, and each moment of time is merely a change from past to future)
and must also involve an attention to a second or third person.
On the other hand, if one tries to form a thought of either the present
time or the first person (that is, if one attends to either of these),
all thoughts will cease – because the present out of the three times and
the first person out of the three places are the root-conceptions, and
the important characteristic of these two root-conceptions is that they
will disappear, losing their existence, if they are sought for by being
attended to.
Thus, when this primal time (the present) and primal place (the first
person) lose their existence, even their source, illusion (maya which
means ‘that which does not exist’), itself vanishes, since it has no true
existence of its own. This is the state transcending illusion and hence
the ever-existing, one, whole and unlimited Self alone then shines!)
Just as we have explained the three walls as representing the three places,
the first, second and third persons, we can also explain them as representing
the three times, the present, past and future. Even though the attention
to the present – avoiding all thoughts of past and future – in order to
know what is the truth of the present, all thoughts will subside and the
‘present’ itself will vanish. How?
That which happened one moment before now is considered by us to be past,
and that which will happen one moment from now is considered to be future.
Therefore without paying attention to any time even one moment before
or after this, if we try to know what that one moment is that exists now,
then even one millionth of the so-called present moment will be found
to be either past or future.
If even such subtlest past and future moments are also not attended to
and if we try to know what is in-between these two, the past and future,
we will find that nothing can be found as an exact present. Thus the conception
of present time will disappear, being non-existent, and the Self-existence,
which transcends time and place, alone will then survive.
The past and future can exist only with reference to the present, which
is daily experienced; they too, while occurring, were and will be the
present. Therefore, (among the three times) the present alone exists.
Trying to know the past and future without knowing the truth of the present
(i.e. its non-existence) is like trying to count without (knowing the
value of the unit) one! - Forty Verses, verse 15.
When scrutinized, we – the ever-known existing Thing – alone are; then
where is time and where is place? If we are (mistaken to be) the body,
we shall be involved in time and place. But, are we the body? Since we
are the One, now, then and ever, that One in space, here, there and everywhere,
we – the timeless and spaceless Self – alone are! - Forty Verses, verse
16.
Hence, attending to the first place (the first person) among the three
places or attending to the present time among the three times, is the
only path to liberation. Even this, the path of Sri Ramana, is not really
for the removal of bondage or the attainment of liberation! The path of
Sri Ramana is paved solely for the purpose of our ever abiding in our
eternal state of pure bliss, by giving up even the thought of liberation
through the dawn of the right knowledge that we have never been in bondage.
Only the first place or the present time, is advised to be attended to.
If you keenly do so, you will enjoy the bliss of Self having completed
all yogas and having achieved the supreme accomplishment. Know and feast
on it! - From The Essence of Spiritual Practice by Sri Sadhu Om.
Let us now again take up our original point. When the attention of an
aspirant is turned towards second and third persons, the ‘I’-consciousness
spreads from the brain all over the body through the nerves in the form
of the power of spreading; but when the same attention is focused on the
first person, since it is used in an opposite direction, the ‘I’-consciousness
, instead of functioning in the form of the power of spreading, takes
the form of the power of Self-attention (that is, the power of ‘doing’
is transformed into the power of ‘being’). This is what is called ‘the
churning of the nerves.
By the churning thus taking place in the nerves, the ‘I’-consciousness
scattered throughout the nerves turns back, withdraws and collects in
the brain, the starting point of its spreading, and from there it reaches,
drowns and is established in the Heart, the pure consciousness, the source
of its rising.
In raja-yoga, the ‘I’-consciousness pervading all the nerves is forcibly
pushed back to the starting point of its spreading by the power generated
through the pressure of breath-retention. But this is a violent method.
The following is what Sri Ramana used to say:
Forcibly pushing back the ‘I’-consciousness by breath-retention, as is
done in raja yoga, is a violent method, like chasing a run-away cow, beating
it, catching hold of it, dragging it forcibly to the shed and finally
tying it there. On the other hand, bringing back the ‘I’-consciousness
to its source by inquiry is a gentle and peaceful method, like tempting
the cow by showing it a handful of green grass, cajoling and fondling
it, making it follow us of its own accord to the shed and finally tying
it there.
This is a safe and pleasant path. To bear the churning of the nerves effected
through the method of breath-retention in raja yoga, the body must be
young and strong. If such a churning is made to happen in a body which
is weak or old, since the body does not have the strength to bear it,
many troubles may occur such as nervous disorders, physical diseases,
insanity and so on. But there is no room for any such dangers if the churning
is made to take place through inquiry.
To say, ‘By holding the attention on Self, the consciousness, and by practicing
abiding in It, he became insane’, is just like saying ‘By drinking the
nectar of immortality, he died’. – From the Garland of Guru’s Sayings,
745 by Sri Muruganar.
In the path of inquiry, withdrawal from the nerves takes place without
any strain and as peacefully as the incoming of sleep. The rule found
in some scriptures that the goal should be reached before the age of thirty
is therefore applicable only in the path of raja yoga, and not in inquiry,
the path of Sri Ramana!
The channel through which the ‘I’-consciousness, which has risen from
the Heart and has spread all over the body and is experienced while it
is being withdrawn is called the sushumna nadi (nerve). Not taking into
consideration the legs and arms, since they are only subsidiary limbs,
the channel through which the ‘I’-consciousness is experienced in the
trunk of the body from the base of the spine (muladhara) to the top of
the head (sahasrara) is alone the sushumna.
While the ‘I’-consciousness is withdrawing through the sushumna, and aspirant
may have experiences of the places of the six yogi centers (shadchakras)
on the way, or even without having them may reach the Heart directly.
While traveling in a train to Delhi, it is not necessary that a man should
see the stations and scenes on the way. Can he not reach Delhi unmindful
of them, sleeping Happily?
However, due to the past devotional tendencies towards the different names
and forms of God, which are bound by time and place, some aspirants may
have experiences of the six yogi centers and of divine visions, sounds
and so on therein. But for those who do not have such obstacles in the
form of tendencies, the journey will be pleasant and without any distinguishing
feature.
In the former case, these experiences are due to non-vigilance in Self-attention,
for they are nothing but a second person attention taking place there!
This itself betrays that the attention to Self is lost! For those tremendously
earnest aspirants who do not at all give room to non-vigilance in Self-attention,
these objective experiences will never occur!
The following replies of Sri Ramakrishna are worth being noted in this
context: When Swami Vivekananda reported to Him “All say that they have
had visions, but I have not seen any!” the Guru said “That is good!” On
another occasion, when Swami Vivekananda reported that some occult powers
such as clairvoyance seemed to have been gained by him in the course of
his spiritual practice, his Guru warned him “Stop your spiritual practice
for some time. Let them leave you!” It is therefore clear from this that
such experiences can be had only by those who delay by often stopping
on the way on account of their Self-attention being obstructed by lack
of vigilance.
Even though the ‘I’-consciousness while being withdrawn courses only along
the sushumna nadi, on account of its extreme brilliance it illumines the
five sense organs, which are near the sushumna, and hence the above-mentioned
experiences happen. How?
When the light of ‘I’-consciousness stationed in the sushumna illumines
the eye, the organ of sight, there will be visions of Gods and many celestial
worlds; when it illumines the ear, the organ of hearing, celestial sounds
will be heard such as the playing of divine instruments, the ringing of
divine bells, sacred sounds and so on; when it illumines the organ of
smell, delightful divine fragrances will be smelt; when it illumines the
organ of taste, delicious celestial nectar will be tasted; and when it
illumines the organ of touch, a feeling of extreme pleasure will permeate
the entire body or a feeling of floating in an ocean of pleasantness will
be experienced.
There is no wonder that these experiences appear to be clearer and of
greater reality than the sense-experiences in the ordinary waking state,
because the experience of the senses, are functioning by the impure ‘I-‘-consciousness
scattered all over the body, whereas these experiences of celestial worlds
are gained through the subtle five senses, which are functioning by the
pure, focused ‘I’-consciousness. Yet all these are only qualified mental
experiences and not the unqualified Self-experience.
Since the mind is now very subtle and brilliant because it is withdrawn
from all the other nerves into the sushumna, and since it is extremely
pure because it is free from worldly desires, it is now able to project
through the subtle five senses only the past auspicious tendencies-habits-predispositions
as described above. However, just because of these visions and the like,
one should not conclude that the mind has been transformed into Self (atman).
Even now there has not been destruction of the mind. Being still alive
with auspicious tendencies, it creates and perceives subtler and more
lustrous second and third person objects, and finds enjoyment in them.
So this is not at all the unqualified experience of true knowledge, which
is the destruction of the tendencies-habits-predispositions. Whatever
appears and is experienced is only a second person knowledge, which means
that spiritual practice, the first person attention, is lost at that time!
Many are those who take these qualified experiences of taste, light, sound
and so on to be the final attainment of Self-knowledge and because they
have had these experiences they think that they have attained liberation
and they become more and more entangled in attention to second and third
persons, thus losing their foothold on Self-attention.
Such aspirants are called ‘those fallen from yoga’. This is similar to
a man bound for Delhi getting down from the train at some intermediate
station, thinking ‘Verily, this is Delhi’, being deluded by its attractive
grandeur! Even superhuman powers that may come during the course of spiritual
practice, are only our illusion, barring our progress to liberation and
landing us in some unknown place.
What are we to do to escape from falling into such dangers? Even in this
difficult situation, the clue given by Sri Ramana alone serves as the
proper medicine! How? Whenever one is overtaken by such qualified experiences,
the weapon of Ramana: ‘To whom do these experiences arise?’ is to be used!
The feeling ‘To me’ will be the response! From this, by the inquiry ‘Who
am I?’, one can immediately regain the thread of Self-attention.
When Self-attention is thus regained, those qualified experiences of second
and third persons will disappear of their own accord because there is
no one to attend to them (just as a spirit possessing a man jumps and
dances more and more so long as others attend to and try to hold the man,
but leaves him if there is nobody to attend to him).
When the mind, giving up knowing those qualified external sense-objects,
again turns towards its form of light (consciousness), it will sink into
its source, the Heart, and lose its form forever. Therefore, the inquiry
‘Who am I?’ alone is the best spiritual practice, (even for aspirants
on the path of raja yoga), which will guard and guide us to the end and
save us.
It is the invincible supreme weapon, which is bestowed only by the Grace
of Sri Ramana True Teacher! It is the beacon-light, which safeguards us
lest we should stray away from the path to eternal happiness, which is
the aim of the whole world! It is the path of Sri Ramana, which alone
transforms us into Self: ‘I am that I am’!
During the course of spiritual practice, an aspirant will now be able,
by the strength of practice, to cognize tangibly what is the state of
the absorption of the ego and what exactly is Self-consciousness, at which
he has been aiming till now. Although his pure Self-existence, devoid
of body-consciousness or any other adjunct, will often be experienced
by him, this is still the stage of practice and not the final attainment!
Why? Since there are still the two alternating feelings, one of being
sometimes extroverted and the other of being sometimes introverted, and
since there is the feeling of making effort to become introverted and
of losing such effort while becoming extroverted, this stage is said to
be ‘not the final attainment’.
What Sri Rmana reveals in this connection is: “If the mind (the attention)
is thus well fixed in spiritual practice (attending to Self), a power
of divine Grace will then rise from within, of its own accord, and, subjugating
the mind, will take it to the Heart”. What is this power of divine Grace?
It is nothing but the perfect clarity of our existence the form of the
Supreme Self, ever shining with abundant Grace in the heart as ‘I-I’!
The nature of a needle lying within a magnetic field is to be attracted
and pulled only when its rust has been removed. But we should not conclude
from this that the magnetic power comes into existence only after the
rust is removed from the needle. Is not the magnetic power always naturally
existing in that field? Although the needle was all the while lying in
the magnetic field, it is affected by the attraction of the magnet only
to the extent that it loses its rust. All that we try to do by way of
giving up second and third person attention and clinging to Self-attention
is similar to scraping off the rust.
So the result of all our endeavors is to make ourself fit to become a
prey to the attraction of the magnetic field of pure consciousness, the
Heart, which is ever shining engulfing all (that is reducing the whole
universe to non-existence) with spreading rays of Self-effulgence. Mature
aspirants will willingly and without rebelling submit themselves to this
magnetic power of the Grace of Self-effulgence.
Others, on the other hand, will become extroverted (that is, will turn
their attention outwards) fearing the attraction of this power. Therefore,
we should first make ourself fit by the intense love to know Self and
by the tremendous detachment of having no desire to attend to any second
or third person. Then, since our very individuality (as an aspirant) itself
is devoured by that power, even the so-called ‘effort of ours’ becomes
nil. Thus, when the ‘I’-consciousness that was spread all over the body
is made to sink into the Heart, the real waking, the dawn of knowledge
takes place. This happens in a split second!
Death is a matter of a split second! The leaving off of sleep is a matter
of a split second! Likewise, the removal of the delusion ‘I am an individual
is also a matter of a split second! The dawn of true knowledge is not
such that glimpses of it will be gained once and then lost!
If an aspirant feels that it appears and disappears, it is only the stage
of spiritual practice; he cannot be said to have attained true knowledge.
The perfect dawn of knowledge is a happening of a split second; its attainment
is not a prolonged process. All the age long practices are meant only
for attaining maturity.
Let us give an example: it takes a long time to prepare a temple cannon-blast,
first putting the gunpowder into the barrel, giving the wick, adding some
stones and then ramming it, but when ignited it explodes as a thunder
in a split second. Similarly, after an age long period of listening and
reading, reflecting and practicing and weeping out in prayer (because
of the inability to put what is heard into practice), when the mind is
thus perfectly purified, then and then only does the dawn of Self-knowledge
suddenly break forth in a split second as ‘I am that I am’!
Since, as soon as this dawn breaks, the space of Self-consciousness is
found, through the clear knowledge of the Reality, to be beginningless,
natural and eternal, even the effort of attending to Self ceases then!
To abide thus, having nothing more to do and nothing further to achieve,
is alone the real and supreme state. - From the Essence of Spiritual Practice
by Sri Sadhu Om.
That which we are now experiencing as the waking state is not the real
waking state. This waking state is also a dream! There is no difference
at all between this waking and dream. In both these states, the feeling
‘I am’ catches hold of a body as ‘I am this’ and, seeing external objects,
involves itself in activities. To awaken as described above from the dream
of this ‘waking’ state is the dawn of knowledge, our real state, or the
real waking.
In this connection, some raise the following doubt: “If it is said that
we have awakened from one dream and have come to another dream, the present
‘waking’ state, why, after we awaken from this waking state, will even
that not be another dream like this? How are we to determine, ‘Another
awakening is no longer necessary; this is the real waking?’ Whatever state
it may be which we felt to be waking, so long as there is an experience
of the existence of any second or third person, which is other than oneself,
it is not at all the real waking state; it is only a dream!
Verily, our real waking (our real state) is that in which our existence
alone (not attached to any kind of body) shines unaided and without cognizing
anything other than ‘we’. The definition of the correct waking is that
state in which there is perfect Self-consciousness and singleness of Self-existence,
without knowledge of the existence of anything apart from Self! From this
one can determine the real waking.
It is this waking that Sri Ramana refers to in the following verse:
Forgetting Self, mistaking the body for Self, taking innumerable births,
and at last knowing Self and being Self is just like waking from a dream
of wandering all over the world. Know thus. - From Five Verses on the
Self, verse 1 by Sri Ramana.
Just as one place, a big hall is divided into three chambers when two
walls are newly erected in it, so our eternal, non-dual, natural and adjunctless
existence-consciousness appears to be three states, namely ‘waking’, dream
and deep dreamless sleep, when the two imaginary walls of ‘waking’ and
dream, which are due to the two body-adjuncts (the ‘waking’ body and the
dream body), apparently rise in the midst of it on account of tendencies,
habits, predispositions. If these two new imaginary risings, ‘waking’
and dream, are not there, that which remains will be the one state of
Self-consciousness alone.
It is only for the sake of immature aspirants who think the three states
to be real, that the scriptures have named our natural real state the
Knowledge-waking, as ‘the fourth state’. But since the other three states
are truly unreal, this state (the fourth) is in fact the only existing
state, the first, and so it need not be called ‘the fourth’, nor even
‘a state’. It is therefore ‘that which transcends the fourth. However,
it should not be counted as a fifth state. This is clearly said by Sri
Ramana:
It is only for those who experience the ‘waking’, dream and deep dreamless
sleep states, that the state of wakeful sleep is named the fourth, a state
beyond these. Since that fourth alone really exists and since the apparent
three states do not exist, the fourth is itself beyond the fourth. Thus
you should bravely understand! - Forty Verses, verse 32.
It is only for those who are not able to immerse and abide firmly in the
fourth (the state of Self), which shines piercing through the dark ignorance
of sleep, that the differences between the first three dense states and
the fourth and fifth states are (accepted in the scriptures). - From Garland
of Guru’s sayings, verse 567 by Sri Muruganar.
When, through the aforesaid Self-attention, we are more and more firmly
fixed in our existence-consciousness, the tendencies-habits-predispositions
will be destroyed because there is no one to attend to them. Thus, the
‘waking’ and dream states, which have been apparently created by these
imaginary tendencies, will also be destroyed. Then the one state which
survives should no more be called by the name ‘sleep’.
When the begninningless, impure tendencies, which were the cause for ‘waking’
and dream, are destroyed, then sleep, which was (considered to be) leading
to bad results (that is, to inertia-darkness-ignorance) and which was
said to be a void and ridiculed as nescience, will be found to be the
state beyond the fourth itself! - From Garland of Guru’s sayings, verse
460
Since that which has been experienced till now as sleep by ordinary people
was liable to be disturbed and removed by ‘waking’ and dream, it appeared
to be trivial and temporary. That is why it was said in this book that
sleep is a defective state, and that the real nature of sleep would be
explained later in the eighth chapter. Therefore, our natural state, the
real waking, alone is the Supreme Reality.
Since this real waking is not experienced as a state newly attained, for
a Liberated One the state of liberation does not become a thought! That
is, since bondage is unreal for Him, He can have no thought of liberation.
Then how can the thought of bondage come to Him?
The thought of bondage and liberation can occur only to the ignorant one,
who thinks that he is bound. Therefore, to remain in this state of Self,
having attained the supreme bliss (the eternal happiness which is, as
pointed out in chapter one, the sole aim of all living beings), which
is devoid of both bondage and liberation, is truly to be in the service
of the Lord in the manner enjoined by Sri Ramana. This alone is our duty.
This alone is the path of Sri Ramana.
To remain in this state (of Self), having attained the supreme bliss,
which is devoid of both bondage and liberation, is truly to be in the
service of the Lord. - From the Essence of Instruction, verse 29 by Sri
Ramana.
- End